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my goals for the new year
12/26/2025
Time really does fly sometimes, this year has been…. Well weird༼ຈل͜ຈ༽. Unfortunately the way the election turned out really put a damper on my mood seeing all the insane headlines for the past year and the way the world only seems to grow more angry really makes it hard to want to keep on trying. It's been really difficult trying to keep myself in check, ensuring that i dont stay uneducated but also take care of my mental health. I have always been quick the angry its the first feeling that hits me when i feel all the emotion crashing down on me, i dont like being an angry person, i really want to go into this next year focusing on myself in all aspects i want to indulge in my hobbies, i really want to take a step back from social media and find the joys in day to day life. I'm going to really implement meditation into my life and find subtle ways to take control of my mind. I also want to jump back into a routine for my witchcraft. There was a time where I was really feeling connected to my craft and in turn connected to myself. I hope to get that flow going again. And most importantly i want to create instead of scrolling for hours on end I want to draw, read, write. I want to pick up music again in high school. I used to do alot of musical things. I played piano for 6 years and saxophone for 5. I'm hoping this year to learn the guitar and write a song for my boyfriend or at the least be able to play him a few songs ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ. All in all, despite how frustrating it is seeing the direction the world is going, I hope to be the person that I want to see, to live the life that brings me as much joy as possible. I hope you all have a fantastic rest of the year and may 2026 be the year of connection and creativity for us all have a good one. talk to ya next time!(・ω<).
3am blog
11/29/2025
I’m sure by the title of this it’s obvious I’m writing at 3 a.m. I felt pretty tired all day today. It went at a really weird pace and I took a few naps throughout, which is pretty weird for me. I’m not much of a napper unless I’m sick. But anyway, because I had so many naps during the day, I’m not feeling very tired at the moment. I know it’s a pretty common thing for people to get really weird video recommendations the later it gets, and that’s been my feed tonight. I’ve been getting a lot of videos about people talking about their fucked up experiences, conspiracies, and other shit like that. Cool, but goddamn is it unsettling ( ⚆ _ ⚆ ) . I’ve personally never had any experience that solidified for me that ghosts exist, but I put a shut ton of trust into my intuition, and I’ve definitely had moments where things line up in a way that could be coincidental but I like to embrace whimsy and the idea of energies that are unseen but still have huge effects on our lives. We see this in the real world too: things like UV lights showing us stuff we couldn’t otherwise see with the naked eye. So I believe it’s not too far-fetched for spirits or in my case, I prefer the term energies to exist in some way, shape, or form. But I also know that at the end of the day, I could be completely wrong, and honestly, I’m okay with that. I’m living a life that I enjoy and truly believe I’ll look back on with fond memories, even with all the hardest parts. Living is beautiful. Being able to experience life is beautiful. Welp, I feel like that’s a good place to end this 3 a.m. tangent. I know this was a bit of a weird one that's just where my brains are at. Talk to you next time.╭∩╮(▀̿ĺ̯▀̿ ̿)ᕗ
First blog/goth night
11/28/2025
Alright, so here’s my first blog. I’m going to randomly update it as I go because why the hell not. It’s the weekend and I’m lucky enough to have three days off, plus a paid holiday. I work in metal fabrication and typically do 10-hour daysfour days on, three days off. It’s been a bit of an adjustment since I just recently started working there, but I’ve enjoyed it so far. And as a trans guy, I’ve gotta say… it’s weirdly gender-affirming ᕕ༼⌐■-■༽ᕗ. But enough work talk; I do more than enough of that throughout the week. Last Saturday I went to a goth night at a bar in town. It was so much fun. I went with my best friend, her boyfriend, and my boyfriend. Me, my boyfriend, and my bestie had a little shopping day. We went to this awesome alternative boutique and I bought some cool colored contacts. There were a bunch of really cool preserved animal fetuses and other wild stuff like that. After we grabbed some last-minute fit pieces, we went to our favorite ramen place, then headed back to our place, pre-gamed, got dressed up, and waited for my bestie’s boyfriend (our designated driver) to take us to the bar around 10. We stayed until about 1:30. Usually my boyfriend is a pretty nervous guy, but since getting on T he’s been telling me how much more confident he feels and I can definitely tell. He was so damn cute, grinning and having a good time (♡´౪`♡). Once we all got tired, we got the hell out and of course had to make a Del Taco stop. When we got home, me and my boyfriend passed the fuck out. It was a great time, and we’re already trying to go to another one soon. Honestly, I have no clue what to write about, so I’m sorry if these end up being all over the place I’m just a yapper. Talk to you next time.ᕕ (ᐛ) ᕗ
